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Q: My new bf has been with like 15 girls. I'm pretty confident in my skills, but what can I do that will really "wow" him do you think?

So my friend called me the other day, just got out of a 2 year relationship less than a month ago and she's really into this new guy, but she's nervous that because he's been with a lot of girls that she won't be able to capture his attention.

My Answer: You already have his attention. Duh.

First of all, just because he's had a lot of sex doesn't mean he's had a lot of good sex. Secondly, what happens in bed is as much a function of the mind as it is of the body. So your attitude toward sex could play an even bigger role than the techniques you're using.

Maybe you want to try something you've never done before, like sex in a public place. Enthusiasm is sure to make him say "Wow"

Deep Thought...

Its one of those days...I feel totally lost. And the thing is on days like these, he's the only one to make it better. Just a look, that look that tells me he's there through absolutely everything, thats all that I need. I woke up this morning in a grey cloud, just that feeling that today would be an awful day. I went to my History of Visual Communications class and aced a test. After that, black hole. I wanted to go to bed and never wake up. I pride myself on positive feelings and always being optimistic, so when I feel like this I just wanna hide, bury the imperfections and disappear. My mood always subsides, but today feels different. Like I'm not gonna get over it or something. I need some distractions, being an art student and having no art courses this semester has both been a drag and depressing. I miss being totally immersed in designing and chaos. I miss feeling like my education had a purpose. And the sadder thing is in less than 6 months it will all be over.

I've never been so excited to get on with my life and really make something of myself, but recently, I'm more scared than ever !

Been gone for far too long....

Sooooo, I've been in Florida since January. On nothing but a Disney Internship. Experience of a lifetime if I must say anything. Crazyyyyy. Im still unsure if anything I did was worth it. I'm behind in school, officially the laziest person ever, want to do nothing beneficial for myself, just have fun. Sad thing is, back to reality I've been since Sept. and boyyyyy can I tell you its been the hardest thing in my life. Getting back after a 7 month vacation..... HA !!!!

Not sooo simple.

I miss Florida, everyday. Not the job even for a second. But the memories and the freedom, thats hard to find here at home.

Battling sadness and trying to figure out who I really am, is hard and challenging but I'm embarking on a journey to truly discover who I am.

" I shot for the sky, I'm stuck on the ground"

Jason Walker, Down

When I'm crashing through the madness, not sure who Im supposed to be, its your hand that's leading me.....

Here with you I feel it, close my eyes and see it,
in a midnight talk, in a morning kiss, when I'm in your arms that's where it is, come and take a walk, we cant resist, when we feel that rush,
That's where it is <3

To my heart:

In order to fufill everything you need, I guess i need to know what that is first, i thought you wanted to be in love, you are. Then I thught to myself, maybe you need a commitment, you have it. Is that ever enough? To be fully loved and commited to? Why do i feel incomplete? When hes around, Im whole. I feel like Im where i need to be and with whom im meant to be with. But when we argue, when Im hurt or misunderstood, i just wanna give up. Whats making me hold on? I couldnt give you that answer even if i tried. Holding on in this relationship has been difficult, but theres no place else id rather be. Im sitting, praying and hoping with my wishes, that my boyfriend comes bak to me. The one i fell in love with. His laugh, charm and smile. I miss him. More and more everday. I know he doesnt mean to hurt my feelings, but it hurts, it hurts to be put down and swore at, and belittled. Its not as bad as I was before, i dont care. Youre never going to do that to me ! It wont happen, you need to understand that even a little is to much. You dont talk to someone like that. Esp someone you love. I guess what im trying to say is, im trying. Im trying to give you everything you need heart so you wont hurt anymore, but its hard. Its so very hard to deal with everyday. Wondering...am i enough? Did i do something wrong? Truth is, i never do, im constatnly giving 110% but even at the slightest frustration, he gives up. Im not sure if thats something i can handle. Fight for me. I hate to sit here and wonder, while you just sit here and ignore. Where do i turn now? I dont need to be the center of attn. thats the last thing i want, i just want to be understood. its nice for someone else to kow what youre talking about. to get you. you know.

I was thinking today when Mr. Muscles mentioned that he tries everyday to be romantic, and do romantic things to keep me happy. I dont need romance everyday, just knowing I’m loved and understood for who I am, Each day to wake up and really know that he loves me because I am Meghan Rose, and I have a heart of gold and would do anything to help, love and protect him for the rest of my life. So this adds a new component, are romacnce and passion a part of love? Or is love a result of passion and romance? And the answer to this question I am still unsure of. I can tell you one thing though, I am in love, I enjoy romance and passion, but do we need them to be in love? For everyone, I am unsure. For me, yes. Passion is an aspect of my realtationship that I seek and look to, everyday. I dont need romance, roses and cards and fancy dinners or surprises all the time...or even sparatically for that matter. But passion...that look you get when you look at each other, the kiss after a long day, holding hands during a movie, the dip during a dance or while Im cooking dinner, the thank you after I do something normal that is just part of my dailt schedule. But my favorite, the look n his eyes when Im doing something I love, that locked look where i find him just staring, and I smile. The look of complete wonder, in that I see how much he loves me, adn the world stops. Even for an instant I know that we are one. And nothing will ever come between us. Its quite often followed with, “Im so in love with you” “i cant wait to have a family with you someday” or “Your’e so beautiful Meghan” I love it. The feeling is unbeatable. So no, I dont need romance, keep the flowers. But I want the passion, I want that feeling of completeness. Where even for an instant, five minutes or an hour, its just us two, together, falling in love, all over again.

So....

...how do you know when you're actually in love, i arrived at this question today when Mr. Muscles sent me an ever popular “Love you :)” text and my reiterated response being,” Love you more !” I think the playful arguemtn is a common argument within young relationships. But why? Does it make us feel better to hear it back, even though the painful truth may be that this is just another little bicker that we enjoy to have in our relationships. I mean how do we ever really know who loveds who more? Or if we even love another at all. I can tell you, its this feeling of completeness, I feel whole when hes around, like nothing can touch me, nothing is going to hurt me. And I think the real reason I know it, I know, everyday that no matter what happens to me, i want him to be the person next to me when I fall asleep. I want him to be the person that I wake up next to and kiss in the morning. It never gets old, hearing Im beautiful, the innocent kisses that turn to passionate love, the soft touch when he stares into my eyes and holds my cheeks to kiss me gently. Nothing compares. I’ve levde others before, but have I ever been in love? I’m not sure, im still not sure if I have ever been in love, what I do know is that I have never loved aother the way I love him, and the feelings I have go to the grave, I put him first, worry constantly and have claws out for any girlt that lays eyes on him, Im protective and loving and crazy and wildy in love with this boy. He’s everythng. And telling him I love him, just seems to be a way of letting him know that Im here, always here. Bur when he argues, i love you more abby, I lifght up inside, I feel good. Why? Does he love me more, how does he know, how will we ever know? Can love be measured by anyone? Or maybe the real question is, Why do we feel the constant need to be reassured?

The New Beginning to the Blog !

1st Off.... I want you to understand I’m from a small town in New York, very small, the cows are close in numbers, here we have a few things in common with everyone around, big families, long driveways and huge hearts. I’m an only child and the center and soul of my parents lives, I adore puppies, cant ever get enough ice cream and could walk around the lake for hours. I could spend days on a boat and take a wine tour weekly, I miss High School, I love my Volleyball Senior Team more than any group Ive ever been a part of. My parents are my best friends. I have a fedish with designer bags and lip gloss. I think with my heart nearly, no, all the time. My head always gets in the way. Creating and dreaming are my two biggest pastimes, I’m always doing something big. I dream to open a Bed and Breakfast,
I love the city but belong in my small town, a sundress is my choice of apparel and I have found the love of my life in a guy the exact opposite of me in every way. Despite every feeling and thought I haev each day, I know I have found the guy I am going to marry ad share my life with, and I can honestly say that I have never in my life been happier. So i guess the comments and stories that will be shared after this post are those of my life, my thoughts, my dreams and my favorite things. Foremost, understand this, I am now and always a country girl <3

My trust was with you, 100%

Believe in me, like I believed in you that day...I lost myself in the softness of your eyes and the touch of your hand...my faith lies within you, and that I can't retrieve...don't let me down baby, you helped me find myself, the parts of me that I lost so long ago...you and I are perfection, and you and I know that I am the one to save you, but the next step; its yours to take... trust me when I say I'll never let go <3

One Tree Hill Quotes...

Truth is still absolute. Believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie.

Lucas: Because it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.

Lucas: My name is Lucas Scott. I'm a senior at Tree Hill High School. Tree Hill is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it's a lot like your world. Maybe it's nothing like it. But if you look closer, you might see someone like you. Or someone like my best friend, Haley. If you're married, a senior in high school, and not sure if your husband is still alive, then I'd say your world is a lot like Haley's. Today was supposed to be the best day of her life. But it's amazing how things can change in the blink of an eye. Or, in this case, in 29 minutes.


Lucas: (voiceover) Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred.How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children out into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?

Much as some of us fight it,
Our parents have a mystical hold over us,
The power to affect out thoughts and emotions,
The way only they can.
It's a bond that changes over time, but doesn't diminish,
Even if they are half a world away .....
....or in other world entirely.
It's a power we never fully understand,
We're left only to wonder that when our time comes,
What kind of hold will we have on our children ?

"If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back."

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment, you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on path? Will others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be haunted by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or simply give up."

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment who will you be? Will you let down your defenses, and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fear bravely? And move forward with faith. Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?"

"Someone once said; 'It’s the good girls who keep diaries. The bad girls never have the time. Me… I just wanna live a life I’m gonna remember. Even if I don’t write it down."

"T.H. White said; perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically…to those who hardly think about us in return."

And when you thought that no one knew what you were thinking, I saved you.

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 And Sometimes you deserve everything you've always wanted <3

Sometimes in life when you get what you want, you end up missing what you left behind.- Scrubs

Be with who makes you happy, even if it means you're always running back.

When you really care about someone... you have to be willing to be hard on them. The truth will always hurt but not as bad as the knowledge of the lie later on.

But there's a story behind everything. How a picture got on a wall. How a scar got on your face. Sometimes the stories are simple, and sometimes they are hard and heartbreaking

I realized I had just entered an interesting chapter in my life. I had outgrown the boys of my past and not quite grown into the men of my future. -Sex & The City

"Just wait and be hopeful. " I was hopeful though, perhaps this was what I had wanted all along. To wait forever. -Andre Aciman

If there's one thing I've learned over the years, it's that you make your own family.

The best relationships were the ones where both sides went out of their way to make sure the other wasn't disappointed.

People say love's complicated but it's not. be good to your partner: fight for him not with him. And above all, be honest. - instant star

Who wants that? I'd rather choose to fall in love and be hurt. Sometimes I can't even sleep because I love someone so much. And there's always sadness in our lives. It's that sad feeling that keeps us going. Because if we can overcome that sadness, we can hope for happiness in the future -House

Randomly she bites her lip, hiding the picture in her mind. Randomly she smiles, she remembers every word you said that night.

Loving someone makes you forget the difference between right and wrong. -Desperate Housewives

Sometimes we wait too long for things that are never going to come.

Well, love is insanity . The ancient Greeks knew that. It is the taking over of a rational and lucid mind by delusion and self-destruction. You lose yourself, you have no power over yourself, you can't even think straight. - Marilyn French

The love of your life might not actually be someone with whom you could spend a lifetime with.

It had taken her years to understand, but now she was a firm believer: Love was that way. You could not render it in black and white. It always came down to the strange, blended shades of gray. -Jodi Picoult, Picture Perfect

You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it's right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that.- Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist

Sometimes I think I am out of my league, and then sometimes I think I can dream. Sometimes I wish I could be the one fish that you choose out of all in the sea. -Hellogoodbye

After a break-up, certain street, locations, even times of day are off-limits. The city becomes a deserted battlefield, loaded with emotional landmines. You have to be very careful where you step or you could be blown to pieces. - Sex & The City

Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always....

But there's another kind of love, Amanda. One that gives you the courage to be better than you are, not less than you are. One that makes you feel that anything is possible. I want you to know that you could have that. I want you to hold out for it...
(Nights in Rodanthe)

You think I'm better, truth is I'm only better with you.... (Me)

Feels like home to me... (How to lose a guy in 10 days)

And we listen to the songs that say what we feel inside.... (Me)

Wake up and see just what, what could be. My life as, as good as it ever be, ever be... (Follow Me, Kid Cudi)

Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure....

You gotta take some chances, you gotta risk losing it all, you gotta close your eyes and leap because it just might be worth the fall....

This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes. It's a universal truth. But the good part is, you get to decide how you're gonna mess it up.... (Marilyn Monroe)

People say that bad memories cause the most pain, but its the good ones that actually drive you insane.

The real world, whether we like it or not, is right here, right now. All of this, every day, is important. Everybody matters. Everything we do has an effect on other, directly or indirectly, whether we realize it or not.

And while I don't need anyone else but myself, life is worth while because of these girls....

Used to carry the weight of the world, now all I wanna do it spread my wings and fly....

And I'm beginning to think it was my fault that I fell for every word....

I can't figure out what's worse. Remembering the memories, or trying to and realizing that they're so far away and not being able to remember them. -Hannah

And tonight darling I wont sleep I'm going to try my best and prevent those dreams of you.

It was amazing, really, just how much pain the human heart could take. -Nora Roberts

And the truth is, I need you more than I've ever needed anyone.

Her heart was ripped in two and she was struggling to breathe, but somehow she knew that if she had the choice, she'd go back and do it all again. That's how pathetic she was.That's how weak-minded and desperate she had become.

And If heartbreak is a compliment, then I must be amazing.

***How can you tell me time after time, I'll take care of you, You're amazing, You're Beautiful, I'll make this work you've seen nothing yet, believe me I won't hurt you...and all the while I was falling into those eyes and farther into your heart, with my smile whispering you can have me forever, and the same time, my head was screaming no.

I hate this feeling. The whole I need you to breathe feeling. . . it's so overrated.

I had gone so far out on a limb with my feelings but I didn't realize I was standing out there alone. -Sex & the City

You know how people say 'It'll be fine. Everything is going to be ok'? They say that because they cant think of anything else -Michael Robotham, Suspect

This is how I spent my summer-- wanting you, but I was too afraid to tell you. -One Tree Hill

If he's dumb enough to walk away be smart enough to let him go.

Have you ever woke up from a really good dream & just tried to go back to sleep? Or had the flu & you promise yourself that you'll appreciate normal so much more if you could just get back to it? That's the way I feel; I just want things to go back to the way they were -One Tree Hill

An ending with no explanation...

Something going so perfectly and just stopping for no reason...or you telling me how much I mean to you and how perfect I am over and over and that you will never hurt me, and then just letting it all go....

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Things to make you go......

WHAT THE F !

Sometimes I feel like I have nothing better to do than sit around and look up retarded shit....but I came across this recently and felt it worthy of a post....

Weird that I keep finding strange gadgets lately.....
Like the Cuchini...


Now its.......

The Kush

Providing relief for side sleepers everywhere, the Kush is an "anatomically contoured accessory" that fits between your breasts to prevent boob crushage while you snooze. We think that the chick in this video looks like she's got a dildo nestled between her bosoms, but that's just us.

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XOXOX

SImplicity....

Absolute Beauty in the little things......

Things to make you go......

WTF !


Really now......

The Cuchini

There's only one kind of cleavage that's hot (or two, counting toe if you're into that sort of thing), and the cooter kind is not one of them. Which is where the Cuchini comes in. It's a pad that slips into your undergarments to "smooth the ridges of a woman's mons pubis area." That's technical jargon for fix yourself, girl, you've got a cameltoe. So the next time you, like the women in this video, shimmy into your fave pair of too-tight spandex shorty-shorts and hike them up to your chin, at least have the decency to "seal your lips" with the Cuchini.

It's almost as if.......

...the little girl inside me doesn't want to give up the dream of what she thought her life was going to be like, what she thought her life was supposed to be like.

But if I don't let go of her dreams, I may never find that mine could be a million times better.

I love where my life is these days, I learned to let go of some of my past and take the risk of actually stepping out into life alone....Your parents aren't the only thing that keep you tied down....I've been happier these past few months than in a long time.....
and I'm loving it.

So if you're ever afraid to take a risk, don't be.....
Everything will be just fine :)
<3

Never think about the future - because it comes soon enough.